welcome to the world of colors.
written by / Parveen Verma, on / June 18th, 2010, under / Fiction
Confidence went down leaking through veins, Moral froze up on cheap (fine hair bristles) paint brush tagged as “FINE ARTS”, and canvas stared deep in my eyes with anger and frustration complaining about all the mess and said “WTF?, what happened to you big mouth?, is that what you call a masterpiece?, go to wikipedia or dictionary.com and get your facts right u a$h0le”.
This is my yet another attempt to get closer to my first love and hopefully will make an announcement real soon about our engagement :)
So, lately i got busy working or rather providing UX solutions under my science section and left my art category alone for a while and, in dark, on it’s own, and i felt it was about the time when i organize myself and save few hours on my calendar on daily basis for my sweet(he)art.
Here i am, dedicated the entire day in hope to get my canvas painted, with my blood running through my veins and stroked with some cheap (fine hair bristles) paint brush tagged as “FINE ARTS”, yes i said cheap. Well, sounds dramatic and overwhelming, i think i need to slow down and control my emotions here as there are people i have yet to respond back to on UX quotes ;p. Sorry guyz if you are reading this, i promise i will get back to you as soon as i am done with this article. So, i went over to youtube and started watching some great artists water painting beautiful landscapes, roses, birds, still life and i was amazed to see their skills and passion for the art and i thought “well, it looks easy and i can do it”. And as always i was wrong, but i did a smart thing before i bought all the necessary art stationery, i watched some basics of water painting which gave me some more confidence and lifted my spirit to paint a masterpiece in a day, yes masterpiece (what a looser i am).
I got up to buy some water colors, paint brushes, palette and i rushed into my nearest market. To my surprise there was only one shop which had some art stationery and i ended up buying stuff meant for children under age 12. I bought the stuff, stood there in the market for few minutes trying to calm myself down and cheered myself up with the thought that now i had something to experiment with, to play around with so what if the armors were meant for kids. In any case i was experimenting with water colors after a long long time, the times when i was a kid myself, so, let’s be a kid again.
I came back home, took one my heavy grained paper sheet i started sketching upon, sat myself down and voila, i was painting again and it was the moment of truth, truth about creating a masterpiece and here i present you with my first effort in world of watercolors.
arrgh!, this sucks!!!
I said to myself, and it really sucks. Confidence went down leaking through veins, Moral froze up on cheap (fine hair bristles) paint brush tagged as “FINE ARTS”, and canvas stared deep in my eyes with anger and frustration complaining about all the mess and said, “WTF?, what happened to you big mouth?, is that what you call a masterpiece?, go to wikipedia or dictionary.com and get your facts right u a$$h0le”.
That just kicked my dutt and hurt my ego and i replied, “wait you blank piece of $hit, i will do it again … ohh no wait, i will try it again.” and that was some self realisation of being dramatic, emotive, aggressive v/s clam, composed and being practical. Now i learned something new today, i learned that masterpieces were not built or painted in a day. So i took a break, gained my faith, boosted my moral and started yet another painting that just look like what one is underneath.
ohh!, what a pitty!!!
I said to myself, and it was the second attempt which literally turned me off. But this time confidence was catching up with blood running in veins, Moral was heating up on cheap (fine hair bristles) paint brush tagged as “FINE ARTS”, and canvas went deep down in my heart with hope and desire offering a compliment and suggesting to take a break, free up mind and just relax and said,”you are getting there, kiddo.”
That just lifted my spirit and made me waana do more. I took a break, this time a little longer, smoked a few cigarettes, and forgot about all the masterpiece $hit, i relaxed and retured to youtube to get my basics back to basic. So … i tried to be friends with water, color, brush and paper, and i think i tried sincerely this time.
After about spending 15-20 minutes of getting acquainted with flow, gradation, strokes i thought lets give it a try one more time. I turned off my new iMac, sat alone for a while, tried recapping the day through and picked up my cheap (fine hair bristles) paint brush tagged as “FINE ARTS” again. I went slow this time, gave enough room for every stoke to take it’s shape and went a little wild in my imagination where i made someone fly fishes as kites.
ahhh!, sweet!!!
I said to myself, and it really is a great unfinished start of a new chapter in my plain white life where i can color it the way i want.
This is just unfinished today’s last attempt to get my basics back to basic and, stay tuned to hear what veins, moral and canvas has to say on this attempt.
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you are getting there, kiddo..
masterpiece will definitely come.
Just relax and free your mind from burden and expectation of creating a masterpiece.
@Pankaj, thanks for your honest thoughts, yes will definitely be there if i honestly devote time and it’s not about painting masterpieces, it’s more about self realisation and story telling :)
Waooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo000000OOOO))))))))))))))))))
You just repainted the smile of monalisa. And it was generous of you to revail the mystry behind. I loved it. Its beautiful. :)
@Vishu, u being too dramatic, thanks for your thoughts :)
Masterpiece, whatz that, its ur failures which are going to turn the world upside down !
All i know is, i’ll be upside down after few shots … cheers! hikkk…
There was one great painter/artist during 1848-1906, he was Raja Ravi Verma. Parveen Verma, another Verma,Is he another great in making?
There was one great friend, brother, character during 2005 – 2006, he was, ohhh instead is Raja Rohit Punia, who has made his presence felt :)
Puniya saab… there should be no question marks(?) in this statement…These all things will not be tolerated…